Why I...

Why I...Live the lifestyle I do

       When me and Daisy broke things off I was devastated. No one thought that I was good enough for her. Not rich enough at least. Now, I live in a mansion and everybody knows my name. I live across from Daisy in hopes that one day she will notice me over here in West Egg. Everything I did was for Daisy,  no question about it. I am finally good enough, and I hope she will see who I have become like everyone else has. I host parties every weekend in hopes that one night she will show up and see me, and all of those old feeling will come flooding back. Actually, I think I mostly hope that those feeling never left her. I hope that she looks at me and sees the man that everyone thought I would never become; the man that I finally am. Finally, I am good enough for her. 

What I Was Feeling When...

What I Was Feeling When...I saw Daisy again for the first time in years.

      When I first saw Daisy, my heart was beating out of my chest. I didn't know how to feel. She looked the same and yet was different. She had this way about her that made you want to spend time with her. That's why I've always loved her. She makes me feel alive and as if all that I have done has paid off. I love the fact that we still have the same chemistry that we did when we were together. It makes me feel like I am transported back to when we were together. As we sat and talked I started to feel less nervous and more like I was actually enjoying myself. I took her to my house to show her how much I have changed. I feel like I am finally good enough for her. Every time she accepts me I feel as if the dream I have imagined for us is actually reality, and no longer just a  dream. I have always loved her and would never stop. Seeing her again just verified those feelings. I had to see her again. It was no coincidence that our houses were across from one another. I wanted to be close to her again and to have the life I always dreamed we would together.

What I Was Thinking When...

What I Was Thinking When...I saw Daisy for the first time in years.

       When I saw Daisy for the first time in years, all I could think about was how much I have missed her. I had lost her years ago and only hoped she would still love me as she once did. I arrived early at Nick's house to meet with Daisy for afternoon tea. I spruced the place up a bit, hoping that it would be good enough for my beautiful Daisy. I thought back to when we stopped seeing each other, because I was not rich enough or good enough. I wasn't going to let that happen again. I thought about all of the things that could possibly go wrong, and I no longer appeared as my confident and in control self. I had the appearance of someone who was actually...nervous. We went to my house and she seemed impressed. For once I thought that maybe I was good enough for her. After all, it was all for her...the mansion, the parties, the money.